Saturday, February 26, 2011
My tears
It falls again... more frequently now...

Am I hurt? Should be.. dats y it falls.. it falls again...

My heart, are you here to be hurt? I hope not but why do you always proves me right? Dat you are here to be hurt... :'(

That smell on dat day and suddenly dat msg? How do you expect me to feel?

Oh yes! I forgot... Am sorry. I dun have the right, isn't it? But why do you want everything to be coupled? Why? My heart, you're bleeding again. I am sorry dat i did not take good care of you.

I think I can't take care of anything and dats y my happiness are shortlived. I am to blame isn't it? But this is me. I am not perfect. I'm just human. I just want to be love.

Mom told me that she never seen someone who really loves me. Sad as it is, but I have to agree.


Was msging him while typing dis blog. My heart stop. He did it again. I know it is coming.

U... if you dun wanna meet me, just say so. Dun need to beat around the bush cos I hate it. Calling her 'dear' justify everything on why you are acting this way. Tqs so much.. Thank you for giving me so much happiness and hopes.... just to dash everything at one time.

It hurts and I'm crying on every intervals.

My dearest heart, I need you. Can you be numb again? It hurts. I can't breathe. Please be numb again. I dun want to be in love again. It really hurts. Let me be love by someone whom I love if you really need love and please tell that someone to be true to me cos I can't trust anyone anymore.. No one... and trusting no one hurts as well. It makes me live in fear.

U... aku menjadi jijik dgn perkataan itu. Mungkin mulai dari sekarang, aku takkan sebut perkataan itu lagi. Mungkin... :'(
posted by Titiks @ 11:42 PM |
Tuesday, February 08, 2011
Emo Realisation
Watched KBS and feeling emo all of a sudden. Then reality struck... I have no one...

I have a sharp nose u noe and I hate my gut feelings and instincts. I smelt the perfume. The seat was way too back. You did not answer my questions. You raised your voice at me. Maybe I was just too sensitive. I dunno.. It reminds me of the first time u scold me till I had a change of heart but I still love u. It is as though you had stayed in my heart for a long long time. Then I realise.. it was always me who holds your hand. I cried...

My dear.. do you remember? It's nearly a year since we met again. We counted every days, every hours, every minutes and every seconds of the day till the next time we meet even when we just met...

My dear.. do you remember? You are so sweet to me. You point out my fault gently but firmly. You are always there for me...

My dear.. do you remember? You make sure I am not hurt by words or others...

Then I realise my dear.. My happiness never lasts long. You forgot your promises. The countdowns had fade away... You're no longer sweet to me and... I am hurt by your own words.

Thanks so my dear for making me cry.. You made me realise that happiness was never mine...
posted by Titiks @ 1:53 AM |
Friday, February 04, 2011
My dear...
My dear my dear... what should I say?

Thanks for everything.
For spending the night prawning with me.
For just being there.

My dear my dear... what should I say?

From the bottom of my broken heart, there is you.
From the shattered family that lead us together again.
From the past we had together that still haunts me.

My dear my dear... what should I say?

Am looking forward to every moment that we will have together.
Though I know, you had taken things for granted but I am still here... for you...

Let me make a promise to myself. I will work hard for our happiness and the happiness of our childrens..

I love all of you....
posted by Titiks @ 5:53 PM |
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Titiks, born on 1st July, gainfully employed in an architech firm. Sometimes happy, sometimes sad but hey, I'm only human!
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