:: The Blood That I Tot Were Tears ::: Goodbye 2010.. Hello 2011

Saturday, January 01, 2011

Goodbye 2010.. Hello 2011

2010 has been a great year... Not that great but great enough to make me smile for most of the time. What happen in 2010? A list of it...

1. Met him again in March 2010 and now still close to him.
2. Met A again somewhere in August or September and nearly got engage to him but did not.
3. An unexpected increment.. Alhamdulillah
4. Can't think of anything else... haha

My Resolution for 2011
1. Hope to still be with him throughout this year.
2. Another increment? Insya'allah
3. I wanna lose weight pretty badly....

So, I shall stop here for now.

Secondly, 31st December every year is a sad day for me and my family though we never show it. It is my late grandmother's birthday and I thought I shall write a letter to her though she will never get toi read it. And so it goes....

Nenek,
Kita rindukan nenek. Bertahun da berlalu tapi airmata tak pernah berhenti menangis diiringi doa doa yang tak putus kita hulurkan. Titik rasa bersalah hingga sekarang. Titik tak sempat meminta ampun dan maaf. Titik tak sepatutnya keluar hari itu. Titik sepatutnya ada disamping nenek membaca surah yassin. Titik berdosa. Nek, ampun kan titik.

Nek, akankah kebahagiaan itu menjadi milik titik? Titik ingin merasakan kebahagiaan. Kebahagiaan bersama dia. Da lama titik menderita nek. Kepergian nenek telah membuatkan titik hilang arah dan punca. Mereka meninggalkan titik juga dan yang ada, mempermainkan perasaan titik. Titik rindukan nenek. Titik rindu baring di lutut nenek. Titik rindu picitkan nenek. Titik rindu belaian nenek. Tapi titik tak bole lari dari kenyataan.

Sedalam mana kasih sayang dan cinta kami terhadap nenek, Allah lebih menyayangimu nek.. Semoga roh mu dicucuri rahmat dan kamu tenang disamping maha Esa. Al-fateha.

posted by Titiks @ 12:19 AM |

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Titiks, born on 1st July, gainfully employed in an architech firm. Sometimes happy, sometimes sad but hey, I'm only human!