Monday, July 06, 2009
I tried so much to get busy today but my mind was full of what is going to happen in two days time. I shake myself awake; awake to what is going to happen; to what is really happening to me. It will be official soon; legally. Suddenly, my heart stops and my mind was reminded of the past. What happen between October and November 2008......

I hate your tears for I know it is never true. I had it when you say those three words for I know it is all lies. Do you know what hurt me most? It is that you don't care about her. When she grows up, do I follow their advice as not to say bad things about you? What does that makes me? A hypocrite? Hating you but have to talk about good things about you? I am so confuse. Not about whether to talk bad things or good things about you but if you have good things in the first place for me to talk about.

Maybe one day when she grows up, I shall just tell her not to talk about u but even that hurts me. She is innocent and she deserves sumone to be her 'f' but I am not able to give her and that hurts me.

Do you know what is my last words to her everynight? It is never goodnight but.... I am sorry my dear...
posted by Titiks @ 11:28 PM |
Sunday, July 05, 2009
When I thot it's OVER
HE called me after the audit. Asking, complaining and talking. Not about me. He is just blabbering. And at that time, I am confuse again but I still stick to my decision of not calling him any longer unless circumstances persist.

He did not come on that day. What the heck. Am pissed off and enough is enough. He is making things difficult for me but still; he do not know who he is dealing with. I know him through and through. Didn't I tell you that I always stick to my no. 3 rules. I only give people 3 chances. I only need to know people by 3 circumstances and I had known him by 100s of circumstances. There is more hurt than happiness and I am not going to take it lying down. I will make sure that he deserve his own desserts. Nothing sweet. Just bitterness all through his life.

And I am going to put an end to all this SHIT!
posted by Titiks @ 2:51 PM |
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Titiks, born on 1st July, gainfully employed in an architech firm. Sometimes happy, sometimes sad but hey, I'm only human!
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