:: The Blood That I Tot Were Tears ::: February 2006

Sunday, February 19, 2006

Aiyoz!!!

Tomorrow working again.. Hate it somehow. Thought of quitting. Wanna find a better job with a better prospects and a good boss. Can't stand her actually. My other colleagues is fine but the environment is quietly stressful; if u noe wat i mean... Well, once I think I'm financially stable, then I'll find another job... Meanwhile, just tolerate the sarcastic thingy that they gave me while I'm there...

posted by Titiks @ 10:07 PM |

Finding Peace

Here I am again with lots of complaints and unhappiness. It's not that I am unhappy with my life but I just hate the way my life is going or should I say I hate the way the road is leading? He thot that he is damn good looking that I should still be head over heels in love with him. Well, he is not and I dun love him or should I say that I never love him. Maybe infatuation but never love. Why should I forget my boyfriend for him? Who is he to call my boyfriend an idiot? He have no right to do that. I hate him. He makes me puke. I can't stand him. I can't stand his snobbish behaviour.. always think that he is the only person who is right even though he is wrong. I can't stand the way he boss his family around. I can't stand the way he shout at his mother as if he is the man in the house. He shouted at the person whom every person in this world should respect. A Mother. How could he do that? He even dared to shout at me in public? That is ridiculous!!! I never ever want to marry a person like him. I rather remain single all my life than be with someone like him who only think of God when in trouble and think that he is the only one in this world who think of Him all the time.... Goodness!!!!

posted by Titiks @ 1:42 AM |

Tuesday, February 07, 2006

Mad about EVERYTHING

At work...
My superior told me that I had slackened. I realised it too since I was hospitalised. My brain refused to think. My memory is bad. I am slow. I dunno why. My superior told me that if this were to continue, she will need to find another alternative... I know she meant that she will terminate me. I need to buck up but how to when my body and organs refuse to co-operate with me?
At home...
Was alone when I went back. I thought my sis n bro-in-law had got back but turn out that they are about to go out. Sigh... Karaoke again!!! While I was happy singing... my mum spoilt the mood by nagging when she got back.. Argh!!!!!!!!!! I am so fed up!!!! Got hell at work n now this???
Outside...
Went to WPSC and met my ex-colleague. Another man suddenly pat him on the back and say hi. I thot I dunno who is he until my ex-colleague told me to remember 2 years ago while we were party-ing at Brix. Then I went, 'What?! He is the friend that you introduce me to last time? Is the boy beside him is his son?!!!' And you know why I'm asking this question? Because this damn guy here told me that he is still single and he even date me out after that party nite. I hate it when people lie to me. I damn hate it!!!
On MSN...
I thot my dear darling boyfriend will cool me off after a hard day today. I am so sad and disappointed when he bombard me with questions that I had answered beforehand... I dunno why the hell did he ask me.

I am so damn tired.. sad.. disappointed and damn angry with all these people!!! Sometimes.. I just feel like killing myself and ends it all....

posted by Titiks @ 10:36 PM |

Thursday, February 02, 2006

Like everyday....

He told me dat our relationship is never a mistake. Breaking up is.... I dunno if meeting him itself is the mistake. I never thought dat our relationship is serious because I never love him. He is nice to me. Last time when I'm still finding for a job.. he is the one who send me for almost all the interviews. He is still schooling and I do not wanna have a relationship with a 'schoolboy'. No doubt he is my age but 'guys are late matured'...
I think I gonna have my migraine again. Got a headache just now while at work. Doing the worker's salary.. A real headache. I dunno how the worker count his salary dat can add up to 27.7 working days! Can you imagine? 0.7 working days? How's dat? Haiz... got to do it all over again...
Had dinner with him just now. Didn't talk much. I think dat we can't click cos I dun have any topics to talk about. He is so full of himself. Talking about his company and the people dat he dealt with. I dunno why on earth do I meet up these people...
He is suppose to come to Singapore on the 24th this month but was postpone yet again. I dunno if I am eager to meet him but whatever it is.. he is still the 'special one' to me. Hopefully, he came by soon so that I can just 'get over and done with'! Ahaks!!!!!

posted by Titiks @ 11:19 PM |

Wednesday, February 01, 2006

Haizz...

Received a lot of 'ang pow' today from my bosses n colleagues. Haiz... gg rich... hehe...

Felt relaxed today. Bought a present for my bro-in-law..
Another long day for me tomorrow..
Wish me the best!!

posted by Titiks @ 10:42 PM |

About Me

Titiks, born on 1st July, gainfully employed in an architech firm. Sometimes happy, sometimes sad but hey, I'm only human!